Down...

Recently,my spirit is really very very low...
I wonder what I am doing is right or not...
What will my stubborn bring me to?
Hell or paradise???

Sad,depressed,disappointed,unhappy,stressed...
Even I am humiliated,I am lazy to explain to people too...
Because people will not trust me after listening my explanation...
Explanation does not make sense at all...
They already labelled me with negative sign...
What I can do is to accept it...(T.T)

Whatever,
I will still keep trying for the best...
May god give me the strength continually in my life...
Thank god!Amitabha.

感情太细腻...

感情太细腻的人
总是轻易地被别人的一个不经意所影响与伤害......

对你的观察越入微，
你的不经意就越容易影响我、伤害我......

我执着，我任性，
我好傻，我天真，
即使被你伤了上千回，
我依旧对你死心塌地；
而你却依旧对我忽冷忽热，
让我难受不已......

不知哭了好几回，
但那悲伤的情绪依旧纠缠着我......

为何？为何？
为何我要如此折磨自己？？？

是傻？是执着？是天真？还是笨？

Mak Aku Sudah Pergi...

Mak aku sudah pergi...
Beliau telah bertolak ke tempat yang lebih selesa
Menjauhi dirinya daripada sebarang penyakit
Hidup dalam keadaan yang aman dan tenang

Mak aku sudah pergi...
Beliau seorang yang penyayang
Selalu menyuruh anaknya berani dan berusaha
Agar mampu mengharumkan nama keluarga

Mak aku sudah pergi...
Beliau seorang yang dedikasi
Tidak pernah takut akan kepahitan kehidupan
Hanya untuk mencari rezeki untuk anaknya

Mak aku sudah pergi...
Beliau telah meninggalkan anak kesayangannya
Buat selama-lamanya
Tiada sesiapa pun yang boleh menghalang pemergiannya

Mak aku sudah pergi...
Anaknya belum sempat lagi pinta maaf
Anaknya belum sempat lagi sayang ibunya
Anaknya telahpun kehilangan tempat manja selama-lamanya...;'(

Rest In Peace,mother...

Lossing of you is really a deep cut in my heart...
Missing of you is really a miserable day in my life...
Although I had preparation for it before,I still felt heartbroken...
To be strong,is easier say than done...
Actually,I still can't believe and accept it...
I don't know how to cry already...
Tears had been dried up...
Heart is still bleeding...
Many hows and whys still in my mind and heart...

Mother,I am so sorry for what I had done...
I didn't appreciate the time when we were together...
I always busy myself with a lot of homework...
I always busy myself with a lof of tuition class...
I seldom leave out more time to be together with you...
I had neglected you after I started to study in Form 5...

I am very very sorry...
That is what only I can say right now...
Mother,as what I had promised to you,I would be good and study hard...
Don't worry about me and the family...
Please Rest In Peace...

Responsible

Chinese New Year is coming again.Everyone feels excited for it!I,am not excepted too!However I got a bad news few days ago...I should not mention it right now because I don't want to spoil the happy mood...

After Year 2011 came,I find that I seems like have grown up a lot already.The "grow up" isn't mean my physical but the field of mental.Nowadays,I have to be responsible for what I have done and what I have said.Everything I have to start to handle it by myself.I can make the decision by myself in doing something.A few days ago,I have got my license!!Yeepi!The more I have been in the world the more responsible I have to take...It is a process of grown-up,right??I will try to enjoy it!=]

I have gone through many things in this couple of days:the happy one,the sad one,the enjoyable one,the annoyed one,the bitter one,the sweet one......Whatever they are,they are still one part of my life.=)I have to accept all of them.

Well,I will try my best in everyday of my life in order to make it become wonderful and colourful!I will learn to take the necessary responsible to myself!Go on,girl!=)

She...

She
is such a nice woman...

She
always does everything good for us...

She
is such a diligent woman...

She
always does her best...

She
never mean to upset anyone...

However,
you make her cried out loudly in front of me
for the FIRST time...

Your ignorance
make her disappointed completely...

Your selfish
cut her heart deeply...

Your action
is not only hurt her too much
but also make us feel heartbroken...

Why???
Why?!!?!!
Why you want to treat her like this way???
You hurted her very very deeply indeed,you know???

Please don't use those useless excuses to cover your crime...
Your childish action made people dislike you...

Whatever...
We don't want to ignore you and your stupid action anymore...
You better learn to take good care of yourself...
Farewell...

Frowning...

There had been age for me to writing something at here...Busy made me feel stress,low spirit and sad...I am here to say out my recently feeling again...

Being in a quite different environment compare to others,I have to face some problems that wouldn't be faced by my friends...I always hope that all of this obstacles will make me grown and be stronger...Although my time is less than others,I still have to submit my homework on time.People always look down on me that they think that I wouldn't be able to hand in my homework on time.However,I prove myself to them by submitting the homework on the right time...Hehe...^^The more the people think that I can't do it,the more I want to challenge them by proving that they are wrong.I will be strong in any way.No matter what will I face in the future...Because I think I had faced the biggest problem in my life,nothing will be worse than it anymore.

Recently,I keep frowning whenever I am...Many people don't know why I do so..Even my English's teacher also asked me:"What's wrong with you,Wen??Is there any problems on the blackboard??"In fact,I frown during her period because I didn't agree with something that written by my friends by I said nothing..I felt quite disappointed at that moment actually...Sometimes,my opinions were not appreciated by others.I felt myself and my words are quite insignificant...Actually,a lot of things are in my minds recently...I have to think over them...

I feel stress when I can't finish my homework..Teachers' scoldings and punishments are not unfamiliar with me anymore...All of this punishments make me feel ashamed,guilty,disappointed,uncomfortable and sad...I want myself to hand in all the homework on time but I always failed...=( However,I don't want people to look at me with sympathetic.I don't want such kind of view!I am not pity at all comparing to the children who can't go to school,who suffered from different kinds of diseases,who lost their parents and relatives during natural disasters......I am better than them.At least I got chance to go to school and study...=)That is why I feel guilty when I don't finish my work...Please don't use sympathetic look at me!!!I don't need it!!I believe I always can be better and better!!

I have learnt some moralities recently.Life cannot be too inflexible.During our life,we will lost something and gain something at the same time.Being persistent will bring some unnecessary troubles sometimes...We should learn to forgive and forget.Life and death is just a natural stage that people have to go through...Be strong and brave to face any problems!!Don't scare it!They all are just a process of life!!

As a conclude,my life is better than many people already and they need more sympathetic than me..=)So,don't give me a sympathetic look to me!!I am so fortune for living in such a challeging environment.God,I know you will always give me the strength and power to continue my life bravely..You always help me when I am in need.Thank you very much for helping me and giving me so many teachers who are always caring towards me.Thank you to my dearest mummy too.=)Don't worry!I will be strong and brave in my life...