Praises make people warm! ;)

Time flies. I have been in my semester break for one month, two more weeks to return to the college. Seriously, I didn't go to anywhere for the past few weeks and I only went out with one of my friends for once only. It was an amazing record for myself because I seldom stayed at home during my last holidays. LOL..

I don't know why I am not going anywhere. I just feel tired; perhaps tired of contacting friends and some people who seldom think of me; or I might try to avoid something that hide in my mind which I wouldn't tell. :) It's not easy to be a good friend, I know. Since we have been apart, our relationship might fall apart as well. Who knows?

While reading friends' status in Facebook, I tend to be disappointed as people keep showing their travelling picture, even in Instagram. They have "helped" me to visit the places where I have been looking forward to. =P It makes me feeling afraid to open Facebook or any other social network. I think social network is a place where people will have a higher percentage to compare between each other. That's why I refuse to keep surfing social network all the time.

Travel makes you richer!

It's not I don't want to travel to other places, but I don't even have a choice to decide due to my circumstances. Sometimes I wish I could solve all the problems, but the reality is always cruel. So, don't be too cruel to yourself. ;)

Let's fly!

Well, instead of travelling, I help out in my family's coffee shop again. On the first day, an old customer asked me where I will be going to for this holidays. With the answer of "travelling between house and shop", the customer was entertained by it. Haha~~ That's the answer I had given him last time. LOL..

Anywhere is the place I want to go to.. =P

Maybe I'm blessed by the god, a few customers praised me for making the delicious coffee during these few days. I'm grateful for that. One of them who just knew me even asked me the secret of making good coffee. My answer is I have been making coffee for seven years without my knowledge. LOL. Time really flies!! It is experiences who teach me to make better coffee, even though some might had complaint my coffee before. ;) Be thankful for that!

Days after days...

Well, their praise had reminded me of the past days as well when my mother was still around. Mother was the one who asked me to make my very first cup of coffee. It was really bitter for the first time. I myself didn't even want to drink it. haha~~ XD Then, I made the second, third, fourth, fifth...... till now, I think it has already over thousand cups of coffee. ;) Meanwhile, my sisters have also been my teachers. hehe.. And I can understand the Chinese proverb which conveys the message "Practice makes perfect" better. :)

Practice makes perfect!

That's all for today. For all my readers, Have a nice day! =)

It's time for a break!

Finally, I have almost ended my foundation year in university. Why did I write "almost"? It is because my college had just informed my class that we seemed like had "accidentally" missed out the moral class for the last semester.. So, we had to replace it by working on some weekly tasks and one assignment so that we could continue our journey to degree program. What the hell? Since I entered this foundation program, my class had gone through 3 semesters' error in timetable. I just wondered how the system be carried out... hmm...

I suppose to write this post few days ago. Unfortunately, I fell sick right after my semester break started. Fever, cough, flu, stomachache, gastric and vomit all came together.. It was like a tsunami inside my body. Due to the illness, I lost my appetite for few days and my weight as well. Laugh out loud... Even till today, I still consume light food only to avoid the gastric problem happen again.. I think that might be the reason why I lost my weight.. At the same time, I was thinking that whether this tsunami is a warn to myself? A warn for me to take good care of myself. As we know, life is fragile. Health is wealth.

It's really time for a break!!

Since it's semester break now, I shall get enough rest and recharge myself so that I am fresh and ready when the school starts again. ;-)

Preparation for final exam

Good morning, world!

I feel good to wake up in the early of the morning.

To me, it is really an enjoyable thing. =D

Five more days for the final examination...

What to do? What to study? What to read?

I'm not sure about that actually!! LOL..

What I know is:

• Try my best
• Study whatever I need to study
• Do whatever exercise I need to do
• Make clear of whatever I am not clear with
• Prepare whatever I need to prepare
• Get enough rest and sleep
• Kick away any illness that might trouble me in preparation
• Relax myself and don't be too stress

Alright, the most important thing I would like to say is "Hope for the best but also prepare for the worst!"

Have fun. =)

First Watch of Ghost Movie in life

Yesterday, I had done a very crazy thing! I challenged myself by going to cinema to watch the very FIRST ghost movie in my life -- Insidious Chapter 2. After walking out from the cinema, I was amazed by my own. haha..

Before this, I had never tried to watch any ghost movie or ghost drama because I knew that I was too timid for it. I didn't want to scare myself during midnight. However, I took up the first step to watch a ghost movie in the cinema. How brave am I!!

Four of us went to watch the movie in the afternoon. One boy and three girls. When the movie started, I felt regretful at that moment and I kept asking myself why I was so crazy to buy the ticket for ghost movie. In other words, I paid RM9 to buy horror for myself to enjoy it within one and a half hour. Wasn't that a crazy action, was it? Nevertheless, I began to feel excited when watching the movie. It was not that scary as I had imagined. It was ok for me.

The most interesting thing was to watch my two girl friends who were scared by the movie. They kept covering themselves with their coats and sometimes they would even scream when there was a ghost running out. I know I am bad to keep looking at their reactions towards the movie. =P Despite of it, I still enjoyed watching the movie. When the two girls were busy shouting and being scared by the movie, the boy who came along with us was busy discussing the movie with me. I think that might be somehow the reason why I did not being scared by the movie. In fact, I kept telling myself it was not a real story. So, nothing to be scared. =)

Perhaps next time, I might buy another ticket for the horror movie if I am brave enough again. Have a nice day. ;)

New Day Starts

12.17am
A new day starts..

Many years ago, I have been in this situation - helping out at my family's shop during school holidays. Each time when the holidays came, I would make a wish so that I could spend some time on my studies during holidays. However, after so many years, I still could not make it real...

Sometimes, I envied my friends who have so much time that they could bathe in it. They could sleep late and of course, wake up late. They could watch dramas and movies as well as go for shopping during the holidays. They could even spend their holidays oversea. But for me, I spend my time at the shop everytime...

Sometimes, I would console myself - people who have so much time might not realise it and they tend to spend their time unwisely. Some of them never cherish for what they have and keep complaining that they are so bored. Indeed, some of them really do not realise that they are wasting their time.

Whenever the holidays are coming to its end, I would be busy with my homework/assignments at night. There is not much time for me to spend on my studies during daylight. Additionally, I would be very tensed when the end of holidays is just around the corner...

I do not know what the future would be. Will I still face the same problems after one year, five years, or even after ten years? Who knows?
No matter what, life still carries on. ;-)

Tomorrow is Monday!!

Today is Sunday...

Tomorrow is Monday! And there will be a new start of my life as I am going to enter my third semester for foundation year in IPG..
My feeling right now is quite excited as I am looking forward for the new semester...hehe..XD

Every day in my life, I would ask myself a question: "Are you happy today?"
If my answer is "yes", then I will ask the next question: "Why?"
If my answer is "no", then my next question will come: "Have you smile today?"
This is because I want to make sure that I can think positively each day and maintain a healthy feeling and mind. ;-)

No matter what has happened, life still carries on.
So, be positive always, my friends! ;-)

A weird situation

Today I am going to share a weird situation which happens to me recently..
As I have left my hometown to further my study in IPG, I would visit my sister who stays near to my college when I am free. She is staying with her boyfriend who is going to be my brother-in-law soon. Everytime when I go back to her house, she would take care of me. Sometimes, they would bring me to have a Japanese meal or local food.. The weird situation is that the cashier or the waiter would asks money from me when it's time to have a bill. Then, my sister would tease me by saying that "Wow, Lywen has a boss look..You see! The waiter or cashier often asks money from her, but not us.."
Facing this kind of situation, I will just give them a smile. Actually, I am wondering about this weird situation too.. Why the cashier or the waiter likes to ask money from me instead of finding my future brother-in-law? ;-D

Sem Break Has Started

My semester break has started and it will be long for one month. To me, one month is quite short actually because time flies! After this sem, I will step in my third semester in IPG (teacher trainees' college). For your information, I am going to sit for the final exam in the coming semester. This final exam makes me feeling quite nervous as it will affect my study. If I fail, I will have to resit the paper. I might be kicked out of the college if I do not manage to pass the second time..It sounds so scary!

In order to prevent something terrible happen to me, I have decided to bring back my thickest reference book so far, namely "Access Literature". It will accompany me for the whole month. Although I take English as my major in the college, I still feel shy to speak English in front of the public because my classmates always tease me about my pronounciation. I really hope that I could improve my pronounciation too in this holidays. There is a saying goes, "where there is a will, there is a way." I believe I can do it if I do more practice and listen more to native speakers.

It seems like I have forgotten to mention the function of "Access Literature".. =P
As you read the title of the book, you will understand that it is something about literature. As one of my lecturers, Miss Nenny has always said, literature is somehow like our minor in the college. As an English learner, we should try to understand the literature because it means a lot in life. It is not just about English but also associated with Geography, History, Culture and so on.. We had done a mock exam during this sem.. Unfortunately, my result for English Studies (Literature) is just enough to pass the exam. It's really time for me to work harder.. ;-)

In conclusion, all after all, what I have to do is read, write, speak and listen! I hope I can have a little improvement after one month starting from today. Cheers! =P

Sleepless night

It is a sleepless night in IPG here. The clock has already pointed to a quarter past one in the early morning. Mothers' Day is just around the corner. I think this would be the reason why I can't sleep tonight..

People around me keep mentioning Mothers' Day. Some of my classmates are going back to celebrate Mothers' Day with their mother in the coming weekend. Frankly speaking, I am so jealous to them who have a mother to be pampered with. haha~

Since my mother has gone, Mothers' Day is actually meaningless to me. Sometimes, I would pretend that I don't know about this festival as I haven't heard about this festival before. This is one of the way that I would use to prevent myself from falling into the solemn again. However, I think I miss my mother again. Sometimes I would hope that she will be back to my side again, but I know, she won't in reality. I wish I could cry out loudly in front of somebody who I trust so that I could release all my sadness.

It is really so lucky for me to meet some lovely lecturers in my college. One of them is Madam Ang. I gave her a wishing card today and she repaid me with a warm hug. I am very thankful to her as she was willing to lend me her shoulder. =') A warm hug can really cure a broken heart.. Although I still miss my mother badly, I feel better after receiving her hug.

Oh Lord!!

My heart sank when I heard that news...

Sad..
Sad..
Sad..

Recently, I felt so down and depression.
I wonder..
What happened to the society?
Why are there so many people who like to be hypocrite?
They enjoy so much to become a hypocrite!!
Always acting in front of other people to show that he/she treats you nicely but spreading rumours behind you...
Acting that they are happy in front of you...
Never show their true colours...

It really makes me so scared to befriend with them because I really don't know when they are sincere and when they are hypocritical...
It also makes me feel hard to believe in people...

After telling them my true feelings, everything has changed..
They said I am over tension!!??
I don't think so..
I just hope that they will be more responsible in their work..
But,look! What has happened to me now?

I hope that "Silence is Golden" is true.
Let's see...

Exploring

Exploring a place on foot is much better than exploring a place by car.

Today I have a precious chance to explore Bukit Indah in Johor on foot with my classmate, Jordan. Don't misunderstand. He and I are just good friend. hehe~~

Recently, we are too bored to stay in hostel everyday. Sometimes I feel that I can't have a breath of freedom in my institute. The laws is becoming stricter. We can't do this and that. We have to obey this and that. It really makes me to start feeling burden and unhappy... So, we tried to hang out with our classmates today to release our tension. However, some of my classmates had gone back home whereas some of them went to the shopping mall to spend their Saturday. We only managed to call on three of our classmates.

At first, our destination was a shopping mall namely Aeon in Bukit Indah. We had five people who hanged out together. So, we divided into two taxi. As we stayed in new block, I shared a taxi with Jordan. The rest shared a taxi and they arrived the destination earlier than us. Without waiting for us, they had gone through the whole shopping mall first before they contacted us and had their lunch. When we met up with them, they had already ordered for lunch and they hurried us to do shopping. Well, their facial expression and tone had put a wet blanket on us... We were really keen to join them. But then... Their next activity was to watch movie. As Jordan was not in a mood to watch movie, we had changed our plan.

With a bag and an umbrella, we started our journey. First, we bought something in Aeon first as Jordan needed to help his roommate who was our classmate too to buy soya. After that, we bought some sushi in the Aeon. Then, we just simply walked around the shops located nearby Aeon to explore something that attracted us. Well, after a round, we had stayed in BlackBall to have a drink and the sushi that we had bought just now. At there, we had talked about our past and some unforgettable memories while enjoying our food and drinks.

After enough rest, we continued our journey by walking to another side of the place. We tried to explore the place. We walked through some shops and we found a garden nearby. We found out another shopping mall namely Tesco after walking through the garden. We were really excited when we found our way to Tesco. So, we walked in and observed the things inside Tesco. haha~~ It was really funny as we found out that most of the Tescos in different places had the same design in its building.

As we had bought something that we needed in Aeon, we didn't enter the area of Tesco where daily used products are sold. Oppositely, we just walked into a small shop inside Tesco namely Mr D.I.Y. We had our own fun inside there. We went through the goods row by row and tried things that we could try. Then, we started to choose a gift for friend and a table cloth for our classroom. While browsing in the shop, we met up with our lecturer suprisingly. That is what we call destiny! haha~~ She was really suprised as it had a distance for us to go Bukit Indah from our institute.

We left the place with a very happy mood as we had enough exploration in Bukit Indah today. Before leaving, we had seen more places that could be explored by us in the future. So, we decided to pay a visit again when we are free. The most interesting was that we could hardly found taxi that passed by Tesco after the exploration. We had to cross the road to opposite side where Giant was located so that we would have more chances to catch a taxi. Finally, we managed to have a taxi to go back. So exciting! XD

也许

也许有时候你会觉得我不在乎你…
也许有时候你会觉得我不关心你…
也许有时候你会觉得我很善变…
也许有时候你会觉得我很冷漠…
也许也许…

其实我很在乎你…
其实我很关心你…
其实我对你没变…
其实我很热情…
其实其实…

有时候，我真的很想跟你吵一架，
让你知道我对你的不满，
让你知道我对你的感受…

也许你不知道，
我再也经不起友谊的打击…

你时常给我黑脸或翻我白眼，
偶尔的冷嘲热讽，
比我还小气的小气，
有时真的令我吃不消…

我承认自己修养不够，
还是学不会去忍让一个人太久…
我还是有着自己的小气，
还是不能很大度地去容忍每一个人…

有时候，你不但不明白我对你的用心，
反而爱拿我和别人做比较，
试问我就真的对你不够好吗？

你也说过：“主动久了也会累。”
那么迁就久了会累吗？

你喜欢的东西，
我都会试着去感受…
但有些东西，
我真的喜欢不了…

我喜欢的东西，
你未必会认同，
但没关系…

可最伤人的是，
你批评我所喜欢的东西…
我若时常提起，
你便会以伤人的语气要我停止谈论…

我怕伤了我们之间的友情，
所以我总是回避你的白眼，
漠视你的黑脸，
忘记你对我的一些伤害，
选择睁一只眼闭一只眼，
以沉默应对所有考验…

朋友，
只要你幸福，
不管你在哪里，
跟谁比较要好，
我都不会介意；
只要你幸福就够了…

若是你有难时，
我依然愿意帮你一把…
祝福你！=')

Painful

Time flies!
Days after days, I thought that I have recovered from the pain of losing you..
Originally, I always avoid the truth that you have died..

Everytime when I think about you, I will still feel sad eventhough I put a smile on my face...
People avoid to let me talking about you...
I know they don't want me to be sad..
But I feel more sad that I can hardly talk about you after your depart...

I am jealous towards those who have mother to dote on them...
I feel sad when I think about your death....
Why God choose you but not others??
I want you to come back..
I dislike that woman to enter our life!!
She has no right to be my stepmother because I know I don't need her..
I just need you, mama!

"Be strong!" The phrase that I often say to myself..
"Don't cry. Be brave to face everything!" I repeat the words, again and again...
But my pain has never disappeared...

In the deep of my heart,
Finally I know that there is still a crying girl who still can't accept your death...

Mama, I really miss you! Don't worry, I will still be strong no matter what has happened...

Love you.